Do you ever get caught up in negative self-talk? A battle of lies and truths, from which you can’t easily find deliverance? For me, I tend to over analyze things and dwell on things that are bothering me until I can’t really find which way is up and which way is out. Usually, it’s not good and it’s definitely not helpful.
For the past week or so, I’ve been trying to figure out why I’ve been so caught up in overanalyzing everything. I overanalyze how I am raising my kids, my relationships, friendships, lifestyle choices, it’s just been a season of wrestling my thoughts. A season of giving into the habit of letting those thoughts get negative. Maybe I’m the only one that does this, and you all are free from this kind of self-torture. If so, consider yourself lucky and please skip this post! But, if you – like me – sometimes suffer from a negative head game, where you let emotions get the best of you, He has some truth for you today!
I had been searching, digging into the word, journaling, literally clawing for a way out of this season. Then one morning at 5 am I got out of bed early, I opened my bible and one of my favorite devotional books and He showed up – in about a thousand ways.
Psalms 51: 1-3
Give ear to my words, O Lord
Consider my sighing
Listen to my cry for help
My king and my God
For to you, I pray
In the morning O Lord
You hear my voice
In the morning I lay my requests before you
And wait in expectation
There it was, I can lay my requests before Him and wait in expectation for Him to show up — because He will! He hears us. I was certainly sighing in frustration and He was considering my sighs, hearing me, letting me know to expect Him. So, I did, I began expecting to see his truths. And then this…
2 Corinthians 4:13 | It is written: “I believed; therefore I have spoken.” With that same spirit of faith, we also believe and therefore speak.
This devotion encouraged us to walk and talk and proclaim the truth that we believe. We have the power to speak truth over ourselves, speak positives over ourselves, and speak His love over ourselves when we are desperately needing it.
That power to speak in belief is ours, in Him! What a victory! And oh friends, hang on, it gives even better!
Romans 8:17 | If we are children, then we are heirs – heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in His sufferings in order that we may also share in His glory.
Are you kind to your soul? Do you consider yourself a co-heir with Christ? Do you dare to speak and believe what Jesus says is true about you because of Jesus? I realized I wasn’t. And, that’s was needed to deliver me from the head game. Soul-kindness. And through these verses, I found the hope I desperately needed.
2 Corinthians 3:16-18 | Whenever anyone turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away. Now the Lord is in the Spirit and where the Spirit of the Lord is there is freedom. And we, who with unveiled faces reflect the Lord’s glory are being transformed into his likeness with every increasing glory, which comes from the Lord who is the Spirit!
He is the remover of the veil and the giver of freedom. He is working on me, transforming, and when he is finished, I will look like Jesus!
So I decided to ask the question, what lies have I been wrestling with? And, what is true of me, in Jesus?
Here’s what I came up with:
Lies and struggles:
- I am not good enough
- I can’t be changed without the right direction from people in my life
- I am not deep enough to figure out how to get out of the head game
- I don’t have what it takes for real change
- People will think I am crazy, or silly
- I am too full of sin
- I make the same mistakes over and over
- I’m too emotional
- God can’t reach me
- I have too many walls up
And once I was able to identify them, He was good to show me what was real.
Truths and freedom:
- I reflect the Lord’s glory (1 Cor 3:16-18)
- I am an heir of Christ (Rom 8:17)
- The life of Jesus is in me (2 Cor 4:10)
- I am a child of God! (John 1:12)
- I am a friend of Jesus (John 15:15)
- I am NOT a slave to sin (Rom 6:6)
- I am accepted by Christ (Rom 15:7)
- In Christ, I have wisdom. (Yep, just me and Jesus is all it takes, regardless of who is in my life pouring into me.) (1 Cor 1:30)
- The hardening of my mind has been removed. (The head game is gone, that’s biblical!) 2 Cor 3:14
- I am FREE in Christ (Gal 5:1)
Friends, thanks for sticking with me through this post, I know it was long. But, amen, praise the God who delivers us from the hardening of our mind, the drowning we do in our own thoughts and emotions, and the lies of the enemy that steal our joy, and mask the truth, which is freedom of Him and His intense love for us. I pray for you that he will open your heart to respond to His world like he did for me this week (Acts 16:14).