I don’t know if you’re anything like me, but when I am hurt, I shut down. Do you find yourself emotionally checking out when you are hurt? Do you find yourself putting up walls of protection that leave you feeling numb instead of protected? If so, have you asked yourself why?
Often times it’s something that we do without even knowing it; in our subconscious we are wall-building.
Whatis even bothering me?
Why am I hurt? Where are these boundaries coming from?
Am I hurt because I feel rejected?
Am I hurt by God, because it feels like he doesn’t want good for me?
Can I trust His actions even though I don’t understand them?
When the questions have been asked, I usually find that at the end of the day it all comes back to me and Him being a more important relationship than any other in my life.
If we are backing away, building up, and shutting down because we aren’t trusting him, we better stop.
If we want closeness with Jesus, we won’t find that in building walls or following anyone but Jesus Himself. He is the one to let down the walls for, He is the one to welcome in, and He is the one we must pursue.