Something happened this past week to me that left me feeling really hurt. We all have our feelings hurt now and again, and this was nothing different or earth shattering, but my feelings were hurt just the same: I was really sad and discouraged.
As I studied John 20 this morning, working through the aftermath of the crucifixion, I read about Mary’s visit to the empty tomb. Oh, friends, His teachings are fresh every time we open his word, and this morning I was so encouraged by the lessons that He laid out as I read about Mary, this woman who loved Jesus, just as I do.
Let me share this with you:
- While the other disciples went back to their homes after Jesus’ death and burial, Mary stood outside the tomb crying. As she wept, she even bent over to look at the tomb. (John 20:11)
- At one point she turned around and saw Jesus standing there, only she didn’t know it was Him. She thought He was a gardener! Until Jesus said to her “Mary.” And, she knew it was her Savior. (John 20:14-16)
- Jesus told her to go to His brothers and tell them of His resurrection. And, she did. She went to tell them of the good news saying, “I have seen the Lord.” (John 20:17-18)
I realized after reading Mary’s story that I was doing the same thing. I was standing at the tomb and crying, staying in the place that I was hurt and grieved and weeping. Not only that, but I was leaning over to peer at the tomb.
Do you ever catch yourself rubbing in your hurts, putting salt in your own wounds? I’ll own to this in hopes that it encourages you and say I do it all the time. One of my favorite Christian speakers, Beth Moore, calls it a “spirit of offense” oh boy am I good at it! (Which, to be clear, is not a good thing!) (Please don’t misunderstand me as saying that grieving isn’t right, when we suffer a loss grieving is right and important. Here, I’m more talking about wallowing or staying longer than is necessary in a place of hurt.)
When Jesus showed up in front of Mary, she didn’t even recognize Him. Perhaps she was too busy crying — wailing and weeping — to see that her Savior was standing before her. How often are we distracted from seeing when and how Jesus shows up in our hurts? I pray that we can all be like Mary and at least hear Him, and recognize Him, once He calls out to us. When he finally opens his mouth and draws our attention to Him (because we’re otherwise blind), let’s hear Him and go to Him, just as Mary did.Instead of mourning at the tomb, Jesus asks Mary to “Go and tell;” to share the good news, to spread the news, and to share that she had seen the Lord.
So, I’m going to try to walk away from my “tomb” today, put my tissues away, and go find someone to tell I have seen the Lord – because, friends, I have.
Will you listen to His voice, and join me?